Be an entrepreneur or work on corporate? Big career dilemma.
I started to wonder when I found myself entrepreneurial. I returned to my 10 years self when I asked my grandmother for a thermal box and material to produce “ice cream” to sell at the school I was studying. My initial goal was to buy a box of chocolates with my profit.
My grandmother promptly took my request and helped me buy the materials. Excited I produced my products and the next day I was with my box of ice cream ready to sell!
I found the first obstacle for those who want to be a business owner: prejudice. My classmates laughed at me. But my desire to sell was so big that I closed my ears to criticism. I came home with empty box and money in my pocket. In a short time, I was able to give myself my dreamed box of chocolates as a gift. The taste of the fruit of my first venture was kept in my memory until today.
But at 18 I was taken by the pressure of “you need to get a job”. And so, my professional life started.
I went through some companies and stood out in what was proposed to me. But I didn’t feel that same emotion that my first venture gave me.
Sometime later, I arrived in the corporate world. Within a year I was promoted as manager of a small unit in the capital of my state. I moved to another city, I changed my life, my recent marriage had to adapt, I transformed our routine totally according to the company. I had the dream of growing in the corporate world more and more. This dream was losing its shine along with my quality of life that ceased to exist. My existence was limited to my work.
My visibility took me to other units training sales staff. If I continued like this, I could go be director in short time.
But it was at the highest point of my career that I made the most difficult decision of my professional life. I decided to resign. I faced resistance. But I was sure it would be the best.
I acquired an incurable disease (this is how I was diagnosed by my doctor) while working at this company. I exceeded my limits every day, but one day it became unsustainable. I did my best while I stayed there, I left the company leaving the doors open.
When I obtained the freedom to perceive myself as the owner of me again, a miracle happened. My illness was gone. The pains were gone. And so, the desire to undertake appeared as a light, clearing all that new road that appeared before me.I did. I started selling cosmetics. In a short time, I already had a sales team and so I tried to expand my business.
But the corporate was ingrained in my unconscious. I found myself working 24 hours a day: sales, accompanying staff, homework, husband and a baby who was still being breastfed. I found myself doing training with my daughter on my lap. I almost freaked out. I wasn’t being productive. I was without quality of life again. I stopped. I needed to breathe.
Entrepreneurship is not easy, making decisions much less. However, finding your essence, what makes your eyes shine is superior to all of that.
Now, more aware of my mistakes and successes, I am preparing to undertake one more time. I acquired more experience, knowledge about my new business and the most important: self-knowledge.
Maturity allows me to see better when and how I want to reach my goals. But the resilience and persistence of that ten-year-old entrepreneurial girl is still a part of me.
Keep moving and never give up. Here’s the way!
This blog was written by Karla Moraes. The intention here is to bring real stories of women entrepreneurs to inspire others.
About the author. “My name is Karla Moraes. A constant apprentice of the school life. Mother, wife, citizen. Aware that our actions at present can influence the construction of a better world. I believe that self-knowledge is the path to new solutions. Resilience, persistence and courage define my personality.”